Sooo let me start out by simply stating I am not dead though i have had the longest three weeks of mai life( Or has it been four?). I will go into detail in just a moment but first let me start by explaining I have been working on one goal for quite some time now to be the best damn Manga-Ka I can be and all though the road to success has not been easy I have had one thing i can always draw strengh on God he has seen me through the Good, The Bad, and The Ugly...^_^ I have grown through different tests in mai life quite a bit through mai struggle to meet mai goal in life.

The first being, the demon called self defeat. I once created a whole comic 22 pages (read em and weep baby)only to let doubt set in and never submit it. I failed the test the first time around in mai early twenties, the funny thing about how God works is that he keeps making you take the same life test over and over til you pass. So five years, and a nine to five office gig later, the same test comes around again. Needless to say i passed the second time around and sent out mai submission to tokyopop for the rising stars of manga contest. Though it was not meant for me to win I did learn a valuble lesson failing at something or not winning is not the end of the world.

The second test was, I will admit was a little harder in mai spirtitual growth only becuase one of mai gifts is mercy. That test was don't let outside factors get in the way of your goal. Now some would say how is that harder than self defeat and I say trust me it is. Only becuase it is...^_^ Sometimes friends and family that are in your way and it's hard becuase it is not like the are doing it on purpose or intentionally but that the roads you need to walk must be done seperately. So then it becomes an issue of trying to drag them down you're road even though it may be taking them from their own walk(like trying to make square pegs fit in round holes). So I had to learn to let people go that weren't headed in mai direction or that weren't at the level that i am at spiritually yet. Cause trufully If your still struggling with test one it is unfair for me to try to make you take test two with me....^_^'

The third test was a monster, blind faith, now i am sure i will have many more tests through out mai life becuase i have seen the vision of what the Lord would have me do and it will take a alot more than i can do on mai own to see it through. Any who back to what i was saying, I was constructivly evicted from the apartment me and mai mom and sister were staying. For those who don't know what that is it is when your land lord shuts off utilities in the hous that you are staying illeagly becuase the rent was paid and he gave no thirty days notice that he was going to do so...a9like two weeks notice and I'm given him some at that) So with in like a 48 hours notice the first 36 sorta like shoked and floundering like what to do, I had to orchestrated a packing and move job with in twelve hours. Cause it was like ninety degrees outside and gah jillion in the house I did the only l=thing i could do consulted God on what to do (A.K.A pray) The awesome thin about God is that he knows your sitch before it even started his answer was simple i will open the door your supposed to walk through and close the rest.... So that Saturday morning i started calling moving companies.

I hit like six or seven and started to get down cause i knew we had to get our stuff outta there and everone so far had said know so i got a little weepy when i called U-haul on mai moms suggestion cuz at first i wasn't gonna call them but I did and the guy that answered the phone was talking to me and while i was trying to see about ordering a truck I yawned. He laughed and said he felt the ame way and for some reason i opened up about our plight with the crazy land lord and the lack of electricity. He did something amazing he took control he got us hooked up with packers movers storage and a truck for the same day. I don't know if anyone has moved before but to do all that in like threehours time is like the parting of the read sea at least in mai book. So miracuosly mai mom had a millitary friend who came off duty to help us organize the packers and movers and we packed down and moved a three bed-room house in like six hours and had it in storage.

We ended up staying in a hotel for like eight days though by that time I knew the Lord would open that door and I was shipped right into the fourth test while completing the third which was peace that goes beyond all understanding a sorta pop quiz in the blind faith area. Now we did finally find an apartment and the house we looked at last was the wone we will take but it won't be ready for another ninety days so till then we now stay at an efficiency apartment.

Finally, after an eventfulthree and a half weeks i am letting every one no Blood brothers will be on hiatus for two months. All mai stuff is currently in storage and will not be assecible to me for like another month. So since we are like a full month into the hiatus period there is technachilly only one month to go. apologize for the hiatus but I need to wait that long to get some stuff together for the new house and since mai mom got sent off to fema for the floods along the mississippi I'll have to take over psuedo mom duties till then. But i will be up and running in a month and provided there are no more major storms in the near future I"ll be able to get back to regular posts once again....^_^